A Tough Moment

Today I (Beth) had an incredibly tought moment.

My 4 year old nephew, Elijah, asked if I was going to come to his 5th birthday party at Chuck E Cheese next April. I had to pause and think about how I was going to answer that. Our target date to leave for Argentina is early January of 2010. We would be in Argentina by Elijah's birthday. How do you explain to a 4 year old that you can't make it to a very important event in his life? In fact, you will probably miss most of his important events in his life! How do you explain to a 4 year old that you are taking away one of his precious friends, his cousin Zane, for a long time? How do you explain that you can talk over the computer, but you won't see him until he is almost done with 3rd grade? I told him we would be living in our new house far away when he had his next birthday. You can only get to the house by an airplane, so we can't make it for his birthday party. I watched that comment sink into his little 4 year old head. He turned, and buried his head into the couch.

My heart ached! The tears came.....for me and my sister, who was witnessing all of this. At this moment I came head to head with one of the biggest things I will be asked to 'give up' as I go to Argentina.

Out of all of the things that I will be missing the hardest by far will be not seeing my family. Knowing that Zane won't know his cousins like he would if he lived in Colorado and saw them every week. Not being able to swap babysitting with my sister or have a double date with her and her husband. Not seeing by neices and nephews play sports or have sleep overs with Zane. We won't get to celebrate holidays with parents and Zane won't be able to visit and play with his grandparents on a regular basis.

There was no good explaination for 4 year old Elijah. All I could say was 'Buddy, we will call you on the computer and watch you open your birthday gifts. And I promise we will all have a fun day at Chuck E Cheese before we leave.' The comment didn't really help. We are still leaving and we are still going to miss his birthday party. The tough moment is over, yet my heart still aches.

So that is where I am at. SAD! I am counting the costs today and I am sad.

Lord -I desire to be obiediant. I desire to minister to the Lost and hurting....but today it is hard to desire that. Lord-Let me see the Lost and hurting through your eyes again. May I desire YOU over anything!

.....still crying!

FOR SALE

Today we put our house up on the market. Yep, 9175 W. Cedar Dr. Unit E is officially up for sale!! David has put a lot of time into getting it all ready by painting, cleaning, and tiling. I, Beth, have sorted, donated, and packed up a lot of our belongings. Please pray that our house will sell quickly and as painlessly as possible. We know that NOTHING is too difficult for our God! AMEN!

Lets pray that this will be the Roberts family very soon!!

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